My first composite

Portraits

These are my portraits. there has been a good change and improvement which i am happy about.

i dont understand..........

These dreams. they repeat themselves. y? wats the meaning? who is she? y cant i meet her?

i need to know who she is.... so perfect in every way...... on my mind at work, at home....... everyday is a different location. different activities. some good some bad. ups and downs. from carnivals to beaches to cozy lil houses, from mountains to valleys, forest... to back alleys. the places change but not the two of us. i want to know her. i want to be with her. everyday seems to be getting longer. i wait to go to bed jus to see her again. feel her again. my nights r my days. how long do i hav to wait............

Days goes by...........

Mundanity - the story of our life. we cannot go against it. we cannot escape it. those brave enough to avoid it rarely succeed to obtain the peace tat they need. How do we escape it. how can we possibly reach the point of not havin to wake up every mornin witout a problem to solve, witout a check to deposit, witout a place we have to be, witout deadlines to meet.wen do we get to enjoy the freedom we deserve. wen can we really feel the need or the want to actually do somethin........ to live the life we hav been given for ourselves..... witout thinkin or considering wat is to be of tomorrow.

Confusion

Stress anxiety. evryone goin crazy. ppl cryin ppl yelling. the tension is rising. evryone at loggerheads. compromise...... ya rite tats well out of the window. deadlines, presentations, so many things to do. how is tis eva gonna get done. wen will tis end. wen will i be able to lay ther.... water washing over me. the pleasant sun staring into my face wit a cool breeze to accompany it. The smell of the salts, the silent crash of waves, the blue sky above.............. or maybe even greenery to surround. birds to listen to. colors to appreciate. cold wind to carry u into another world. one witout thoughts or words or problems or people................... wen will it happen.

Days goin black

tension, stress everything tat can piss someone off. irritation frustration. the want to get out. leave n go. start afresh. start from scratch. leave all tis shit behind. go somewher. find new ppl to trust. find a new person 2 be with. live the life ive always dreamed of.

m sinkin. its crazy. n evryday seems to be more of a struggle 2 resurface. to find my place. to know y. to know what. to hav a plan. tat works well. the want to be wanted. the want to be needed. a person 2 run to. to cry on, to act unreasonable. jus for a bit. wher how.wen is tis gonna end..................